IT DOESN'T RAIN IT POURS
If you want a happy post, you may as well go and read somewhere else. Because I've had it from all sides in the last week, and I'm shattered. Completely and utterly shattered.
I've had to re-evaluate my position at work and decide whether to take on something else which could work spectacularly, or fail spectacularly.
I've had to make the decision sooner than I thought as a crisis came up, and its still a crisis, and will be for a little while longer, and I'm walking around in the dark.
I've been pressured and pulled and slapped around the head a few times with steel bars pretty much every day. My head hurts.
Relatives descended over the weekend, which is fine normally, just not when I'm trying to think through a number of crisis.
My body gave up on me, and I had fun in the emergency department of the hospital last night. You have no idea how much time has been consumed with me thinking about this over the last week. Me, anxious? Never.
Today the crisis continues and the work which was supposed to be done for me hasn't been. Could someone please switch the light on, it's very dark in here.
And there's more, but some of it isn't for posting.
So anyone else want to take a swipe at me - come on, I love being beaten to a pulp. I thrive on stress. I'd love to curl up in bed. I should be in bed. Just need to solve all the problems in the world and I'll be OK.
Oh, sweetie!! I'm so sorry! Is there any way you can curl up in bed with some good knitting and ice cream? THAT's what you need...
Here's hoping your breathing returns.
Posted by:amanda | April 26, 2005 at 09:07 AM
Poor thing, you are in my thoughts. My answer today was to drop all my discretionary money for this paycheck at the LYS, then burst into tears at the first line of the pattern "cast on 299 stitches".
Thank goodness my family is small and far away. A toast to you on your battle-field.
Posted by:Elaine Haig-Widner | April 26, 2005 at 09:51 AM
Poor dear, I hope your situation improves and soon...so horrible being stressed out beyond capacity. You deserve to be spoilt Alison...take care, your in my thoughts.
Posted by:Wendy | April 26, 2005 at 10:10 AM
Oh, I'm so sorry! I hope things get better real soon. Get some good long bed time in asap!
Posted by:myra | April 26, 2005 at 10:20 AM
Al. Didn't realise you were feeling so bad chick! You hide it well, maybe a little too well...Ask for help chick. BIG hugs to you.
Posted by:Nicole | April 26, 2005 at 11:31 AM
mmm. sounds like you need a bit of space and maybe a you day - if you can't find the time maybe a you hour. go on, take a long bubble bath, or lock yourself in your room with the music up and a good book and ignore the banging on the door. it works.
Posted by:kathreen | April 26, 2005 at 12:27 PM
Sounds utterly miserable. This comes with my best wishes for an upturn and happier days.
Posted by:Jane | April 26, 2005 at 04:53 PM
poor you...i was like you but i made up my mind: i changed work.
be strong! :)
Posted by:raquel | April 26, 2005 at 05:04 PM
Oh, golly! I hope things begin to brighten up for you soon. When your body is telling you that you are too stressed its always worrisome (which, well, doesn't help, huh?).
Posted by:jenanne | April 26, 2005 at 09:33 PM
here is to hoping that things get better for you. And if not there is always that cyclical karma thing that you have going for you in spades!
Posted by:stinkerbell | April 26, 2005 at 11:39 PM
Oh gosh! Here's a hug, a shoulder and a few moments peace for you. Take care of yourself!
Posted by:Heidi | April 27, 2005 at 01:24 AM
Aw! You sound so down. I hope everything works itself out soon!
Posted by:Bertha | April 27, 2005 at 03:01 AM
:(!!! *hug from a stranger* Feel better!
Posted by:joleen | April 27, 2005 at 05:02 AM
How can we help? Hoping you are feeling better soon.
Posted by:Bliss | April 27, 2005 at 07:13 AM
*delurking*
Hello - Melbourne girl here who discovered your blog through the adorable Kate Gilbert bunnies and loves your wonderful quirky creatures. Sorry things are so difficult right now. Hoping easier times are right around the corner for you - hang in there.
Posted by:Anna | April 27, 2005 at 07:22 AM
Wish I could take it all away. Please take care of yourself.
I hope that you find your best solution out of your messes sooner rather than later. Stress is awful.
*hugs*
Posted by:julia | April 27, 2005 at 08:48 AM
So sorry to hear you're copping it, I hope things pick up soon... work stress is awful. Can you call in sick and take a day for yourself? Take care, xo.
Posted by:Fiona | April 27, 2005 at 10:19 AM
*hug*
Posted by:Hanna | April 27, 2005 at 08:09 PM
Hang in there. You've got mountains of support out here in blogland... if nothing else, know that we're pulling for you!
Posted by:Ann | April 28, 2005 at 03:32 AM
Poor you, consider youself hugged. Tucked into a warm blanket and handed a nice cup of tea. Hope it improves soon!
Posted by:Eileen | April 28, 2005 at 01:07 PM
A mother can't nurture unless she is nurtured herself and the only one who can do that IS the mother. So do what you have to do, you know what works best. Remember that the wind eventually comes along and pushes away those big threatening black storm clouds and out pops a beautiful day.
x
Posted by:jen | April 29, 2005 at 08:48 AM